Fuck your shit.

Is it really true, what I'm thinking, what I'm feeling? "Some people call me a distraction, a tool that they use to keep them company until they can finally hang out with the person they want to. You know what, I fuckin agree with them." ...I don't know why but somehow I believe this is more fact than fiction. Sometimes I even feel this way with my friends. Just chilling with me because they think they have to. Well fuck them for thinking that, fuck me for not realizing it sooner. Piss off, just admit it to me so I can find new friends. Especially my friends with a significant other. Constantly texting, thinking about other people when they're with me, I know what you're doing. How would you feel if I did that the whole time and didn't say shit to you. So if you feel like you're only chilling with me cause you have to, fuck off. If you're bored with me? Fuck off. Cause I'm done with having fake friends. That goes for my best friends too...shit can't last forever if I feel like shit.
If you're bored and you find the need to talk to me, I don't give a fuck. If that's your reason for talking to me, what can I say...fuck off?

So i think this is the death of my blogspot.
Feel free to visit my tumblr, which is in construction.
MuchLove, Peace the fuck out.
MJMendz

ComeOnNow.

This is the one where I let it all out,

     I shouldn't be expecting to much right, because it seems like I'm expecting a hell of a lot more than I should. I mean, its not like it should be anymore than it should be, and I'm pretty sure she's not feeling the same way, obviously not. Keep calm, cool, collected for the time being I guess. Like I said before, I've read that letter a million times, and the fact that you haven't read it makes me seem like such a loser hahaha fuhh. Anyways, guess I have to be patient...In my own words, "In Due Time" -Freakin Story of my Life I swear.

   I haven't blogged in a long time and I've got a hell of a lot to say but I guess imma keep it short and sweet. Thank you to all my friends for like...I guess letting me consult you, give me advice, keep me calm, just being  true friends. iLU guys for everythang.

This is where it gets personal, and unless you go to HC, you really wouldnt understand as much haha
Shouts to Vanessa...and now Abby haha, you guys always know what to say and how to say it :) Aha f'reals though, when I told Ness that I was like...struggling through yenno..girl ish as usual haha, she told me to talk to Abby "She always knows the right answer" So I was like, alright sounds cool. Little did I know that Abby completely ooooopened up my eyes to everything in my situation haha, it was kinda like we were going through the same thing. But anyways, thank you AbZaps(if you ever read this) and I hope you know I'm here for you too.

• Kimmy, keep your head on your shoulders, even if you're feeling on top of the world like I know you are right now haha! Just keep calm, cool, collective and errthang should be Ights! I'm happy for you and I hope it all turns out the way that you want it too be.
• Anna, lol shiet I like how we were on the bus and shit talking to her about this. Anyways thanks for like chillin with me today at the aquarium and hopefully we get to do this stuff again sometime :)
• Connie, haha sup cousin. Thanks for always being there for me, givin me a hug whenever I look messed up lol, btw yeaaaah pretty sure I don't want you to buy me shoes, at least not now ;) 

Well, I don't really have anything to generally say to everybody...WHITE KIDS ARE COOL TOO OKAY, they need love as much as every other non-white person does haha. I joke, but nah like RyConnor' Dadson, Vukets, and Campagne are dope man, good time today boys! This weeks been fun, not many more weeks pass by before summer comes. K FUCK, I need to pass math or else I will shoot myself in the face, k thanks.

Some wisdom that I got from Abby, (obviously haha)
"Maybe God has a bigger plan for me that I had for myself"

Muchlove,
MJMendz

Playlist#4: Unpredictable.

Updates on my playlist. A lil bit of love, a lil bit of swag for ya.

So Into You - Fabolous & Tamia. (Obviously, this is gonna be my jam forever)
When We Say(Juicebox) - AJ Rafael
Summertime - DJ Jazzy Jeff & The Fresh Prince
Someone to Call my Lover - Janet J.
Pyramid - Charice & IYAZ <3 Luhh this song!
Holla At Me - Chris Brown ft. Tyga
Let's Get Married - Jagged Edge (Calm down, its a good song)
Click - Shawn Dezman

Aha Anyways, Muchlove
MJMendz.

Ayoo

I wanna blog, but i have no time.
this doesn't count :)

Elle Est,

She rocks Nikes, she rocks Vans
Not afraid to rock the New Era Cap
She plays guitar, can sing for a bit.
Got a good head on her shoulders, knows what`s up
Down to party, just not too much
Prettiest girl you`ve ever seen
Chill with the fam, in and out.
Take care of her, she`ll take care of you
You wouldn`t wanna lose her, she`s the bestest*
I`d hold on to her forever if I were you.

Tell me you remember,
MJMendz

Tumblr.

Why does everyone have to use tumblr, haha no one uses blogspot anymore. Maybe I should make one..